Audits

We are going through our annual audit. This week the auditors have been here, having us pull all kinds of stuff that may or may not be there, since we have missing items. It is starting to really wear on me. I will find things that should not be or not find anything that should and I get very upset and angry.

It is hard because right now I really cannot talk about any of it. It is stressful, hurtful and still, it is a little shocking.

Will this ever end? The AG's office should have the results of the State Auditor's investigation by month's end. I don't know what to think about that. It makes me sick.

Late Nights

I haven't been this way in years and years, but I am staying up until 3 and 4 in the mornings every "night". I just cannot sleep. I am exhausted by 7pm, but wide awake by 10pm and up to all hours of the night. I know that between my blackberry and my laptop, I am online more of the day than not. Probably not good.

Sheryl asked me if I thought I was depressed. I think she probably hit the nail on the head. I am glad she is honest. I hadn't been too honest with myself. I am feeling that way. Nothing major, but it has gone on for more than a few weeks now.

Work sucks. I am so disappointed in all the things I am finding out and it makes it so hard for me to continue putting my heart into my job. I come home and feel like I am pulled in several different directions and really, by the time I am home, I am so tired, I don't want to move.

Something's gotta give. But what?

*SIGH*

Well, it has been a week and a half already, but it is only Thursday. Ever feel like that? It has been the longest 3 days. Everyone at the office is having a hard time getting motivated, I think. There is so much crap to wade through besides doing our regular, everyday jobs. I am having a hard time getting up and coming in every morning. Part of me does wish that one of the jobs that I sent my resume to would have panned out and I could have just exited with apologies. But so far, I have received a couple of "due to the economic climate, we are no longer hiring for this position..." letters and an interview for something, that after talking with the person about the position, I do not even want to do.

I had been planning to start back to school at University of Oklahoma this January, but I am starting to feel so overwhelmed with everything else, I am thinking of post-poning that until the summer or fall. Jenn doesn't want me to, but I just don't see how I can have the energy to do it right now. I am just so down. Plus, she is trying to get into Oklahoma City University for January, and I want to make sure that we can afford for her to go there and I don't know if we can if I am also going to OU.

Blech. I cannot believe I am voluntarily going to attend OU. LOL

Go Pokes!

Stress

It has been a very, VERY stressful month and a half at work. Well, actually, truth be told, it has been a very stressful year. It has been one full of lies and deceit and I am truly devistated by it all. The stress of the past month and a half has just been almost too much to handle and if I didn't work with an awesome group of people and amazing programs, I don't think I would still be doing what I do.

I have the next four days off and they are so needed. I hope that I can sort of relax and get over some of the stress of the last six weeks so that I can get back to the business of helping people help neglected and abused kids.

Santa Intervention

Having issues with your children and their behavior? Not picking up their rooms? Talking back? Fighting? Running around crazy? Wouldn't it be great if your kids could receive an email from Santa? Well now they can!

Santa can send them a "Santa Intervention" email whenever you want, detailing your children's offenses and letting them know that he and his elves are watching them and contemplating whether they are going on the "naughty or nice list".

Santa just needs to know your child(rens) names, their offenses, the town you live in and "voila!", email sent notifying them of their status with Santa. Here is a sample of needed information:

Anna - not listening, talking back, pouting when she does not get her own way.
Max - Won't leave his sisters alone, being a pest, not listening when told to stay out of the girls room.
Davis - talking back to his mom, not listening to his Dad.
Emily - not wanting to share the computer games, and whining when asked to do something.
We live in Indianapolis. Thanks!

Lazy Saturday Nite

Well, I am sucky tonight. I am so freakin' tired and have been working so much overtime, I just don't want to do anything. Jenn is mad at me because of that, so she went out with her friends to a Rocky Horror Picture Show thing. I love Rocky Horror, I really do. I am just so tired and want to lay in bed with E and watch tv.

She just left to go and E and I are watching Witches of Waverly Place on the Disney Channel. I know. I am lame.

Weekend! Woot!

I have never been so happy for it to be the weekend! OMG! What a long, long, LONG week. I worked early and/or late all week and I am exhauseted. On top of that, Jenn and Eli have both been sick and missed school this week some. It's just been crazy.

Work is really stressful and because we have had people leave, I have been on major overload, trying to keep up with an extra job and parts of other jobs. Everyone has. It has been just nuts.

I am looking forward to going out to eat tonight and to bed early. Tomorrow I have to show my face at a golf tournament, and that hopefully won't last long because a HUGE suprise for the boys is coming!!!

Shhh... don't tell!! It looks like this but also has monkey bars.

D.C. on Friday!

It's true. We fly out Friday morning for Washington D.C. Woot! I am starting to get excited. I haven't been too much, just because I have so much work to finish up before I go. I seriously need to get some things finished up first. I came into work today at 7:30 AM to get a jump start. It was so quiet and nice. It was great. I got a lot finished before the phones started ringing!

We are staying at the Omni Shoreham Hotel in D.C. I am really excited about the Saturday night trolly tour we are going on. It is the monuments at night. I went on a similar tour when I was 12 and just thought everything looked so beautiful at night, all lit up in the dark. Just beautiful.

Crazy Day!

I am stopping for a few to grab a bite, check my email and update my blog! Our state conference is Thursday and Friday and we are working our collective arses off. I was at the office until almost 8pm last night. This morning, we spent about 3 hours putting together the conference binder/notebooks. We are getting ready to put together the centerpieces for our luncheon. That will take another couple of hours. Then we have to "stage" all of the stuff that we take over to the conference center. That way when we load the Uhaul, we will unload it in the order that we need it. Make sense?!

Well, I guess I am going to go back to work. Ya'll probably won't see me until the weekend as the next 3 days will be nuts!

Upcoming Conference

I cannot believe that our annual state conference is just a week away! We are usually stressed out and running around like chickens with our heads cut off, but things are really calm this year. Maybe it is because I don't have as much to do with it as I have in year's past, but I just finished up the certificates for the conference attendess and now I am going to start on name badges. We have about 250 people registered to attend.

I think it is going to be a really great conference this year. We had used the same format for years and years and this year, we sort of shook things up. We are having 10 speakers, instead of 5 and we are not doing an Awards dinner, but a luncheon.

I will let you know how it goes. I will probably be MIA next week. LOL

Already a LONG week

We had a break in at the office this past weekend. They ransacked our offices. So far we haven't found anything that was stolen, which is good, but it has been a chore trying to sort through all the paperwork that was dumped.

On top of trying to put the office back together, Jenn has had mid-terms and her Biology class is just getting really hard. She is getting really stressed out. I ended up taking us all to Golden Corral for dinner last night, because I didn't think she would be up for making dinner after her crazy day. She had a test in Religions of Mankind and then her Biology lab quiz was very hard.

I am glad that my nephew's birthday party is this weekend, because a little trip down to Dallas may help us all.

The boys are excited to go and also to stay in a hotel with an indoor pool, so they can swim. LOL We will probably take them to Dave & Busters, too. I want to take the boys to The Purple Cow for a burger at some point and Jenn wants to go to Pappasitos. It is her favorite place.

It should be a fun weekend. My parents will be down, too and so we are hoping the whole family can hang out together a little bit.

Work

I am waiting on someone to run labels so that we can finish a mailout that the boss-lady wants finsished today. I have asked a couple of time, but heard nothing. So.... *sigh* I am sitting here blogging about it. LOL Fun time, eh?

Ok. More fun. The printer is broken or something. Yay! *rolleyes* We only have like 50 printers in the office. I guess they are printing them now, but on a different printer.

I just don't have patience today.

Long week

It has been a long ass week and it is only Thursday! Ugh! We had a huge meeting at the office yesterday and I really didn't get anything accomplished other than getting the meeting set up, attending it and then putting everything away when it was over.

I hope tonight is just lazy. I want to veg and watch the Big Brother episode.

Office Stress

well, I am expecting around 75 grant and membership applications by 5pm tomorrow. I am still missing a lot of them today and wondering if people are just really that behind or if they are not applying this year. Hmmm?

It is going to be a stressful couple of weeks on my, trying to get all these applications read and all the compliance done on them. *sigh*

I am looking forward to having it all over with, the board voting on it and then over! Of course, that isn't until Mid-July! *ack*

Thank goodness we get a long weekened!

WHAAAAA!!

OMG! I had a crazy day today at work. The moment I walked into my office, my phone was ringing off the hook. I was seriously on the phone about half the day. I didn't leave the office until 6:30 and I am planning (lol, planning only) to get there at 7 in the morning so I can have some quiet before the fires start again.

I have so much to do and I have to keep putting it aside to deal with these things that crop up and I am never going to get my stuff finished. I feel very overwhelmed. AGH!

I have enough filing to get done that would last me a week, really and seriously. I don't know when I will ever get caught up! I cannot wait to get my new file cabinets!

Spending

Ugh. Just thinking about the holiday season is giving me stress. Every time the boys see a toy commercial it's "I want that!". I hate how the holiday season has just turned into a big money suck and is more about presents than spending time with family.

I seriously do not have more than a couple hundred to spend on Christmas this year and it is just going to have to do and I hate feeling guilty about it or upset that people might feel slighted. How crazy is that!?

I also want to go to Sears or Penny's and get the boys pictures made soon. Cards with pictures are what this year's gifts are all about! :)